Saturday 15 November 2014

Insidious Weeds

Spending sometime with Jesus this morning...

"Maria what are you desperate for?"

Oh! Nooo! Not that question!

It's not that I don't know that answer to this question, because I do, oh I really do, but it's that it's such a painful question, because it hashes up all those dark things in me that I try to drown out with busyness, parties, friends, work, noise... 

Anyone know what I am talking about? Sure you do!

OK so what are you desperate for? First things that come to your mind...

to be loved.

That's an easy one right? 

Truth - I am loved by God. He is enough for me. He satisfies me. 
Truth... or is it?

If this is true why am I still so desperate for love?

Because I am believing a lie...

The lie - I am not loved. I am unlovable. I am alone.

That's stupid! I know that's not true... or do I? Because I am living like I believe the lie...

I know that this needs to change, but I don't know how it will change. I don't think that it can really ever change. ANOTHER LIE! 

Oh gosh! You see how insidious this is!? 

These lies that we all believe are like deadly weeds that take root in our minds and hearts, choking out beauty and life... and just like gardening we need to be diligently weeding our minds and hearts, pulling out the lies...

We need to get on our knees before the Great Gardner and ask for Him to show us the lies that have taken root in our hearts and minds. As we humble ourselves before Him in times of prayer and mediation, in stillness and quietness He will help you pull them out, and plant in your heart and mind life giving flowers of truth.

There you have it, its not easy, it's hard work, you will get dirty, your knees and back will hurt, but with the diligent effort of spending time with Him, He is faithful to heal and restore you...

O my people, trust in him at all times. Pour out your heart to him, for God is our refuge (Ps 62:8)
For we are God’s masterpiece. He has created us anew in Christ Jesus ... (Eph 2:10)
And I am certain that God, who began the good work within you, will continue his work until it is finally finished ... (Phil 1:6)